I’ve been remiss in writing. I suppose its discouraging that the only “people” who come to my website are spammers, but its reallly my own fault. I don’t write much of interest nor do I leave any eye candy for ya’ll to browse. Anyone who used to check in at all has probably given up, considering its been three months since my last entry. My bad. I’m currently having a host of conflicting emotions. Theres the sappy happy lovey dovey cookie baking, present wrapping, card writing, carol singing christmas spirit that I’ve eminated ever since Dec 1st when an acceptable distance had passed beyond turkey day. Someone down the street put up some fantastic Christmas lights that make me smile every night when I walk home from work. Also one of the MIT or BU frats put up some radical lights on Comm Ave just East (if east is in the direction of the water and the public gardens) of Kenmore Square. I should really walk through the gardens and what not. Alas, I digress, my whole point was emotions. The other creeping underlying emoness is anger about the PC, commercialized Xmas bullshit. I was noticed headlines on AOL meant just for people like me. People who have nothing against the religion of the holiday, yet no real stock in it and are just suckers for peace and good will to man. The kind of people who get teary eyed at Halmark commercials… The story was about school music concerts omitting any carol that was overtly religious in nature, or concearned specifically Santa and Reindeer or Menorahs or Kwanzaa and didn’t just talk about snowmen and sleighrides. I know I’m a big baby and I’m stating the obvious, but its incredibly discouraging that we can’t get past all the bullshit and just enjoy the spirit of the season and being home for the holidays and kissing under the mistletoe and reading The Polar Express to preschoolers. Ahhhh. I’m rambling so much.
More importantly I’m considering sinking myself another 1500$ into debt. I should really plan ahead for shit like this, but Michael and I were talking about the atleast 400$ I would spend on film and processing for europe alone. How I never use my 35mm because I don’t have darkroom access and I don’t have a film scanner and its expensive… and sigh. Maybe its time to invest in a *GASP* digital SLR. I’m tired of watching my friends Nick, Ian and even my boyfriend post rad images that I know I have the knowledge to rival. I cite photography as a love and I hardly do it anymore if its not with my cell phone. Its sad. Really sad. And maybe I’m trying to convince myself I’ll shoot and post again if I have a new camera. I could write it off for work at Stuff. I think I’m looking for someone to weigh in on this, so if anyone actually reads this… please… your 2 cents is way needed. Other things to consider include that I plan to cell a video camera, old ngage and autographed bill clinton book, maybe some old Cds and books to help budget this whole thing.
Happy 2nd Night of Hanukkah.
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